a horrid shade of grey

My cheeks used to flush rose
and my eyes they flashed with green
you liked me when I was funny
you liked it when I was mean

You started to change
I wrote you a letter
explaining how change
wasn't always for the better

No response,
Perhaps you didn't read it?
Or perhaps, as I fear,
you simply didn't need it

Not like me
I needed to tell you
but it didn't seem to work
so I'll try out something new

I give up, give up
all my defences have been shot to hell
your free to tight lace me
then I'll never tell
in a corset, in your arms
they feel the same to me

don't they do the same thing?
trap me in for you
I'd like to think they'd stop this all
if they only knew
but this is just what's normal

I gave it all up
just to please you
i cannot breathe
I'm turning blue

blue blue blue
a sea of blue
and all they ever want
is to tell me what to do

just like you
just like you!

I only have myself to blame
for all i do is listen
listen listen
and fear

Fear what? Fear who?
I fear them
I fear you

but there's no real reason to
for you have already killed me

There will be no justice here
because all you did was make me fear
the fear it made its way inside
and one day I realised that I'd died

Ladies and Gentleman of the jury,
you won't avenge my death!
for you don't believe me
The cold still shows my breath

it doesn't mean they didn't kill me
the rules, the rules, the rules
they think you put up with me
the fools the fools the fools

You pulled me in and crushed me up
until I was almost gone
replaced me with a girl
timid, like a fawn

Here's a rule for you,
don't tell me what to feel
you've really truly ruined me
tried to tell me what was real

Now I'm blended grey,
even you, know it's not okay

I'm no use to anyone
it's over
I'm done