the last one for you

I can't stop wondering how it happened
I'd never do it now
I can't tell how
I ever let it happen

It wasn't happiness that I felt
you made me giddy and sore
it was some sort of fake goodness
based on settling the score

of hurts and wrongs and make me ups
and revenge against them all
was it really what you wanted?
lies and tears and shake me ups
and don't pick up the call

I was just a kid
you should have known
you should've done it better

I was just a girl
you were grown
no love in your love letter
but how was I to know?

I think I know why
I believed the lie
and it's not because you spun it well

neither you or I
knew the lie.
real happiness was foreign
so we mistook a dizzying spell
of something else, for happy

I don't miss you now
and I know how
and why. I've not reached the stars
the sky. but finally.
I'm happy